- sun, grass, air, oaks, stone, leaves, wind and ourselves. that's how i find peace in live.

Looking Inside

With any gift of strengths, there is an associated weakness. Without 'bad', there would be no 'good'. Without 'difficult', there would be no 'easy'. We value our stengths, but we often curse and ignore our weaknesses. To grow as a person and get what we want out of life, we must not only capitalize upon our strengths, but also face our weaknesses and deal with them. That means taking a hard look at our personality type's potential problems areas.

*potential problem areas for ENFJ by Robert G. Heyward

listen and stay

just want someone to listen
to hear and not turn away
This craziness that is me
in the day after day

But it's okay
I'm alright
I'll dive back down
In the depths, out of sight.

To that special spot
where I don't care
In here I'm alone
But fair is fair.

The darkness is beauty
and the sun only burns
this sadistic smile
forever it yearns

to watch the evil
as it leap and bounds
sitting silently
without a sound

A pure enjoyment
leaves only wonder
what other sin
is around to plunder

terkatung - katung

"If he loves me, just let know. If not please gently let me go ."

Vaclav Havel

Hope is a state of mind, not of the world . . .
Either we have hope or we don't; it is a dimension of the soul, and it's not essentially dependent on some particular observation of the world or estimate of the situation.

Hope is not prognostication.
It is an orientation of the spirit, and orientation of the heart; it transcends the world that is immediately experienced, and is anchored somewhere beyond its horizons . . .

Hope, in this deep and powerful sense,
is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously heading for success, but rather and ability to work for something because it is good, not just because it stands a chance to succeed. The more propitious the situation in which we demonstrate hope, the deeper the hope is.

Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism.
It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out.

what does my birthday say ??

wow. i gotta say thanks to internet, for this amazing technology.
(yes ma'am !)
nowadays everyone all over the world can share their idea, their knowledge, story, life and everything by using it.

and heii !!
i did a little test and got this result. believe it or not,,
it is 99% TRUE (hehe)
just take a look :

NOVEMBER

" Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. Spiritual. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable. "

titik

aku tak akan pernah takut mati.

walau menyalakan kompor gas saja, tak pernah berani.

aku tak akan pernah takut mati.

walau untuk mempulgin-kan stop kontak, jemariku bersekresi tak tahu diri

kematian.

sungguh akan terus membayangi, walau kau bersembunyi di dalam gunung merapi setinggi penyangga bumi ini.

meski waktu terus berjalan tak pernah berhenti.

mendekati waktu kematian ku suatu hari nanti .

namun, segala perasaan dan buah karya ku akan selalu tersimpan apik.

dalam teknologi ini.

kelak anak cucuku akan menjadi saksi .

bahwa aku .

pernah berkontribusi, sempitkan tempat persinggahan semu, yang tidak abadi.

since i know there's an invisible responsibility

do you have a lil bro or siz ?
do you feel proud about that ??

some said " aha "
and others will say "oh damn !! its a cursed"

menjadi seorang kakak bukanlah hal yang mudah .
ada beban yang tak terlihat, di pundak kanan dan kirimu .
sikap, polah, tutur kata hendaknya menjadi teladan untuk sang adik.
dialah masa depan dunia ketika generasimu MATI.

saya pernah mendengar beberapa baris tentang pewarisan.
salah satunya adalah yang mengatakan bahwa bumi ini bukan ditakdirkan untuk kesejahteraan dirirmu.
namun yang akan kau wariskan kepada anak cucumu.

tak usah berteori terlalu jauh.
jangankan mewariskan bumi kepada anak cucu, mewariskan suatu bekal moril bagi kehidupan sang adik saja belum jelas, belum benar.lantas bagaimana dengan teorema pewarisan bumi ?

andaikata saya dapat memutar waktu dan bertemu Tuhan YME. salah satu permintaan utama saya adalah, " Tuhan, would you please do not give me lil siblings? i've no power to take that responsible."

tetapi kenyataannya pengandaian itu hanyalah seperti permen manis kala dirimu merasa lapar. hm,, intinya bukanlah jwaban dari suatu permasalahan.

kurang lebih 11 tahun lamanya, saya telah menjadi seorang kakak dari seorang adik perempuan istimewa dengn jarak kelahiran 6 tahun. Semakin dia bertambah besar semakin terlihatlah, bahwa sifatnya hampir sama dengan sifat-sifat saya. yang ironis adalah, sifat buruk saya seperti terjiplak jelas dalam stempel habits attitude memorinya.

oohhh .. soorrrrrryy my lil siz :)
cannot be a great, awesome, cool sister figure for yooouuu hanibaniswitiiii :(

damn it !!

"why money makes people so blind? weird? jerk? impatient? obsessed? and blablablabla ."

i HATE anyone who has discovered money !!

eww !

this machine knows me more ..

Orange Panther, who is emotional and gentle, but are also fragile and have graceful atmosphere.

Inside, you are rather proud, and have inner strength.

Your personality is passionate, and will not give up what you have decided half way through.

You have perseverance.

You are not very skilful, and believes you are dependent and weak minded yourself.

You have great talent in coming up with new ideas and creating things.

You have will power to challenge anything, but tend to lack the last push.

You don’t become inpatient even if you are put in a difficult situation.

You have a capacity to find a way to overcome a difficulty with calm.

Your negotiation tactics are brilliant.

In daily life, you are influenced by your preferences, and may act unreasonably.

You are also calculative, and become persistent.

Nevertheless, you are sociable person, and can be passionate on things you do.

You have a quality to be a leader.

You are rich in originality, and can come up with new ideas from existing things.

You can find better ways from them.

After marriage, you can be obsessed with your children’s education.

You may find something worthwhile to do out side your home.

is it me ?
i dont know .
but this results gave me some inspiration about who i really am..

haha .
oh machine.
oh world.
oh magic ?

then,,
oh panthera genus :)

ooooohhh WHAT A WORLD :)